Category Archives: NotmebutGod

19.8.15

B released me to attend the end-times CWBS finale today. It would be my first time attending this three part bible study with Pastor Kong. B offered to take care of Izzie. 

I had a terrible headache at mid-day and was tempted to skip the bible study. As the headache got better, I decided to stay and meet my cell group member for dinner. I also decided to go for the first half of bible study. It was sooo good that I stayed for the entire duration. Thank you Jesus and B and cell group members. I was very blessed. 

Just two days ago on a bus journey to work, God reminded me on an incident which happened seven years ago. I was at my lowest questioning who I was. A friend came to my place and talked to me at a nearby playground. Despite my failures, she did not condemn me. Now she is still encouraging me not to give up and that it is okay to be human. I am overwhelmed by God’s love for me: That He sent another great gift to me (not just dying on the cross for me) in my friend. God is indeed good. I’m blessed. 

    

Last week was a very stressful week. Peak. Campsssss and HK holiday programs and Chinese conference stuff. This week, I was bombarded by IA and Chinese conference. I falter. I questioned if I was wasting my time. 

Someone pointed out my thought pattern. Ultimately, it is my own decision: to change the “misery” I felt. 
Today, I shuffled between two bus stops and missed my bus. I got panicky coz I needed to reach Tampines childcare by 7pm for pick up. 
Just another journey in panicky mood but I had a strong word: That I need to give up from wanting to give up whenever I am provoked. My capacity is bigger than that. That I need to be always grateful for all I’m given. That I need to be humble: it is a joy to serve God the most high. That I need to stop asking for what I deserve because what I deserve is very much worse than what I have now. God is not done with me. 
End of story 
  
   

14Mar15



I am glad Isabel is well today and I could bring her to Children’s Church. Praise the Lord for His healing upon her life. 

On the way to church, Izzie suddenly turned to me and said, “It’s a special day!” 

Although there were so many times she pushed my buttons all over with her pickiness and drama, her affections and warmth have melted me countless times as well. I guess everything comes in a package and it’s all good. I’m always glad when Izzie asks for love and affections from me and B. 

In church, my pastor is now in a LIFE series and today he talks about Forgiveness. I sat next to a boy named Norman and at the end of service, I was given a wonderful opportunity to pray for his healing. God’s love was so tangible and I know He is our healer and has finished the work for us. 

Chosen

Today, in the most natural circumstance, God spoke to me. I was brushing my teeth and I asked God, “Why did You choose me to go through this tribulation? Why not somebody stronger? Why not someone with more charisma and influence?”

And He answered:

1 Corinthians 1:27
New King James Version (NKJV)
27 But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty;

1 Corinthians 1:27
The Message (MSG)
26-31 Take a good look, friends, at who you were when you got called into this life. I don’t see many of “the brightest and the best” among you, not many influential, not many from high-society families. Isn’t it obvious that God deliberately chose men and women that the culture overlooks and exploits and abuses, chose these “nobodies” to expose the hollow pretensions of the “somebodies”? That makes it quite clear that none of you can get by with blowing your own horn before God. Everything that we have—right thinking and right living, a clean slate and a fresh start—comes from God by way of Jesus Christ. That’s why we have the saying, “If you’re going to blow a horn, blow a trumpet for God.”

What a powerful answer…that left me vulnerable to Him once again.

Day 5: Homecoming

I got a call from the nurse at CSDU at 9am this morning. She said doctors have cleared for Izzie for go home! Hallelujah!!!

When we saw Izzie, she was in the arms of a nurse. Obviously she has been crying for someone to carry her. Awww. The nurse told us that they have removed her dressing, cleaned her and fed her. We could change her out of her hospital clothes to home clothes. Whoopee! We waited for the pharmacist to come with the medication (which is just paracetamol). Then the nurse gave us the discharge summary, health booklet, follow up appointment letters and feedback form. And off we go!!! Izzie’s ah ma & ah gong (my in laws) greeted her at the lounge and together, we made our way home. Praise the Lord for a successful surgery and speedy recovery. Izzie is a champ and I am so proud of her.

My parents came over to see her as well. What a warm welcome home for Izzie. 😛

Izzie is a reminder of the goodness of God!

Faith for Healing

The take away for today’s staff devotion: I need to activate my faith for a supernatural healing miracle & I need to come back to a place of prayer.

As the date of Izzie’s surgery draws nearer, undoubtedly I feel just a little more anxious each day. I know that isn’t right. It’s natural and I cannot be in this state of mind all the time. I need to pray for peace. I believe God is mindful of every detail of our lives and I want to trust His sovereignty. I will keep confessing good health, strength and growth over Izzie. My God will take good care of Izzie.

 

139 Lord, you have tested me,
so you know all about me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I get up.
You know my thoughts from far away.
3 You know where I go and where I lie down.
You know everything I do.
4 Lord, you know what I want to say,
even before the words leave my mouth.
5 You are all around me—in front of me and behind me.
I feel your hand on my shoulder.
6 I am amazed at what you know;
it is too much for me to understand.
7 Your Spirit is everywhere I go.
I cannot escape your presence.
8 If I go up to heaven, you will be there.
If I go down to the place of death, you will be there.
9 If I go east where the sun rises
or go to live in the west beyond the sea,
10 even there you will take my hand and lead me.
Your strong right hand will protect me.

11 Suppose I wanted to hide from you and said,
“Surely the darkness will hide me.
The day will change to night and cover me.”
12 Even the darkness is not dark to you.
The night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are the same.
13 You formed the way I think and feel.[a]
You put me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because you made me in such a wonderful way.
I know how amazing that was!

15 You could see my bones grow as my body took shape,
hidden in my mother’s womb.[b]
16 You could see my body grow each passing day.[c]
You listed all my parts, and not one of them was missing.