Last week was a very stressful week. Peak. Campsssss and HK holiday programs and Chinese conference stuff. This week, I was bombarded by IA and Chinese conference. I falter. I questioned if I was wasting my time. 

Someone pointed out my thought pattern. Ultimately, it is my own decision: to change the “misery” I felt. 
Today, I shuffled between two bus stops and missed my bus. I got panicky coz I needed to reach Tampines childcare by 7pm for pick up. 
Just another journey in panicky mood but I had a strong word: That I need to give up from wanting to give up whenever I am provoked. My capacity is bigger than that. That I need to be always grateful for all I’m given. That I need to be humble: it is a joy to serve God the most high. That I need to stop asking for what I deserve because what I deserve is very much worse than what I have now. God is not done with me. 
End of story