This weekend Pastor spoke about ENJOYing life. The message seemed so familiar. One year ago, I was lonely, sad, trapped, and on the verge of doing something rash and silly. I was so glad someone found me and spoke joy into my life. “Life is already so hard, why must make it miserable?” “You’ve got to do things that make you happy.” While I can’t say I am super happy doing what I am doing, I think I am much better and happier now than a year ago. In the beginning of the year, I made a decision to be happy. Along the way, there are incidences which threaten my happiness but I am glad that I make the decision to continually make a choice to be happy despite of things that rob my joy. I can’t eliminate and control these bad things but I can control my reaction to them. 🙂 

I realized that after 2.5 years of mommyhood, I don’t enjoy the toddlerhood that much. It is a test of my patience and there were so many times I was easily irritated with Isabel. And so many times I felt guilty after disciplining/”abusing” her. I am not sure if I was too harsh and broke her spirit. Today I enjoyed giggling with her when she couldn’t fall back asleep after we came home from grocery shopping. She fell asleep on the supermarket trolley halfway through shopping and woke up when we reached home. 

I am enjoying family time more because it is so precious. 

Precious moment for Isabel with grandpa.