The year is coming to an end in exactly a week’s time. Did I accomplish my goals for this year? Honestly, I did not set any goals this year. However, my life took a dramatic change this year. The year started with me being pregnant, then it was bed rest with the risk of miscarriage because of heavy bleeding. Towards the end of my first trimester, things became better. I went back to work and shortly after, I changed jobs. From a job nature of video editing, I dealt with a lot of admin and though it was tough initially, I grew to love what I did. When I just crossed into my third trimester, complications arose and I had to be hospitalized for a month. My emotions went roller coaster since then.

Izzie was delivered on 1 Aug 2012 at week 34. From being pregnant, I became a mommy. My family now included a little bub who needed to be fed every two hourly even throughout the night. There were changes to my body after giving birth. I had to be home confined and my food was restricted until Izzie turned one month old. It was tiring and depressing. I was discharged from a month’s stay at the hospital only to find myself being confined in my home for another month. It was such an emotionally challenging time to fit into my role and to care for a preemie. I suffered from post natal blues and there were mommy friends who looked out for me and helped me go through it.

By the third month of my maternity, I was getting used to my role and bonded well with bub. It was time to go back to work half days. Yet another transition and challenge. I felt torn between bub and work. I was struggling to go to work. My job description had totally changed again. It was a hard time of adjustment.

Then the exhaustion I felt…the boundaries & threats…the lost ‘me’…

Many changes in a year. Sometimes I wonder how in the world did I go through 2012. It hasn’t been easy but I just want to thank God for giving me more than sufficient grace and strength and for family and for sending Godly friends who helped me along the way.

This year ….
A year of challenges and valley moments.
A year which God showed me who my friends were and sent me genuine new friends.
A year which I receive the most precious gift from God.
A year which I grew closer to God by relying on Him.
A year of surrender and trust.
A year of closer bonding with the hubby as we went through tough times together.

2013. Let it be a better year. Same old brand new Debbie. > AQ