After being absent from work the past two days, I was very thankful to be released by B back to work today. My new boss had the first department meeting of the year and my job scope changed with immediate effect. Like I shared in my previous post, I am excited for the change and look forward to being and staying happy in 2015.

Izzie’s illness seemed to worsen tonight. She didn’t eat her dinner and then coughed till she vomitted twice in less than an hour. While I was in despair, I massaged her and thought about what to do. Changes that I/we need to make. The massage was so long and comfortable that she fell asleep. I can only say that this was God. The “only me” reaction for a crisis would have been a “panic and shut down” mode. This time I was doing something constructive while I was panicking. God was indeed with me.

Tonight I had a precious conversation with a dear friend. We do meet ups once in a while, whenever we can, with our families. We both are mommies to young child(ren). Tough to meet up because we live in opposite ends of Singapore and have our own family commitments. Tonight, we had an hour long whatsapp conversation. Somehow the timing clicked. The words clicked. The thoughts clicked. The spirits clicked.

It felt like God sent me a sister (that I never had naturally). She asked questions, she listened, she understood, she encouraged, she told me stories, she shared her inner thoughts aloud, she made me laugh, she encouraged again… What have I done to deserve a gem? Nothing! It was an appointment arranged by God. Being an introvert, I’m pretty sure this kind of communication alone can sustain me for months! Haha! Of coz, I can’t deny that all human beings (myself included) need to have real and honest face to face interactions from time to time. It builds our emotional and mental health. We are created to relate to one another whether we like it or not. But tonight, I felt like my need for support from like-minded parents is met and that is so precious.

There are serious things that I need to think and pray and talk about. Until then… Step by step, I will persevere and conquer this journey in front of me. I am confessing positively that Izzie will recover fast and be healed completely.