Monthly Archives: February 2015

Feeling loved

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Today my favorite friend told me there is 1-for-1 promo at SB @ 3pm. She said she was going to SB and asked if I wanted. I said ok and told her my usual order. Then she said she wanted to buy me the drink and in less than 10 mins, she gave me a Venti sized drink!!! She found out that another friend (our friend) was already at the cashier when she started queuing so … (Fill the sentence up)

Izzie didn’t want to go out for a walk the entire day. She was lethargic and slept a lot. After she woke up from her long nap at 4.30pm, even when I asked if she wanted to go to the playground (her favorite place), she firmly replied, “NO!” I persuaded her to go out with her pram. Only then she let me bring her out. After going around our block once, she requested to go to the playground, much to my delight!

I brought her to a playground we have never gone before. She went “wow!” when we reached the playground and off she went to play. That brought a lot of comfort to my heart.

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(null)Izzie has been very lethargic these past two days and has been sleeping a lot. Her fever which lasted 2 days broke. PTL. I think she reached the peak of being sick yesterday. She would cough till she vomit so I had to feed her less than 50 ml of water/milk every 1-2 hours. It felt like she went back to the days of being a newborn. Thankfully, she could drink goat’s milk and eat biscuits by night time. Today, she only drank goat’s milk. She didn’t want her soup during lunch. Randomly, she asked for noodles only and banana during dinner and went off to sleep already. I hope she is on the road to recovery.

After being absent from work the past two days, I was very thankful to be released by B back to work today. My new boss had the first department meeting of the year and my job scope changed with immediate effect. Like I shared in my previous post, I am excited for the change and look forward to being and staying happy in 2015.

Izzie’s illness seemed to worsen tonight. She didn’t eat her dinner and then coughed till she vomitted twice in less than an hour. While I was in despair, I massaged her and thought about what to do. Changes that I/we need to make. The massage was so long and comfortable that she fell asleep. I can only say that this was God. The “only me” reaction for a crisis would have been a “panic and shut down” mode. This time I was doing something constructive while I was panicking. God was indeed with me.

Tonight I had a precious conversation with a dear friend. We do meet ups once in a while, whenever we can, with our families. We both are mommies to young child(ren). Tough to meet up because we live in opposite ends of Singapore and have our own family commitments. Tonight, we had an hour long whatsapp conversation. Somehow the timing clicked. The words clicked. The thoughts clicked. The spirits clicked.

It felt like God sent me a sister (that I never had naturally). She asked questions, she listened, she understood, she encouraged, she told me stories, she shared her inner thoughts aloud, she made me laugh, she encouraged again… What have I done to deserve a gem? Nothing! It was an appointment arranged by God. Being an introvert, I’m pretty sure this kind of communication alone can sustain me for months! Haha! Of coz, I can’t deny that all human beings (myself included) need to have real and honest face to face interactions from time to time. It builds our emotional and mental health. We are created to relate to one another whether we like it or not. But tonight, I felt like my need for support from like-minded parents is met and that is so precious.

There are serious things that I need to think and pray and talk about. Until then… Step by step, I will persevere and conquer this journey in front of me. I am confessing positively that Izzie will recover fast and be healed completely.

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Change

With immediate effect, I have an additional job scope. Although it seems daunting especially when the majority of the workload comes in together at the beginning and end of each month, somehow I have a peace inside me that it will work for good! I am excited for 2015 and will remind myself that I will make a choice to be happy. Yes, I will allow myself to be a family member in my team. It is an important decision and I know it will prosper me and my team.

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Izzie is sick again. She is coughing and has lots of phlegm accompanied by loud breathing. We brought her to see the PD yesterday night. She was given neb and her usual medication package. Initially the PD wanted to give her antibiotics but realized she just finished a course last week so this time, Izzie has to fight the virus all by herself. I like that she is not given another course of antibiotics. I have to get well already to take care of the little one.

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I am confessing for this little champ to recover fast and that she will grow stronger!

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That’s her who wore the shoes all by herself and ready to go out! She is beginning to wear her shoes all by herself. Sometimes she gets it right, sometimes she wears her shoes wrong sides and sometimes she gets frustrated that her foot is not getting into the shoe. My little babe is growing and learning and I’m always proud of you, precious darling. Be well, my girl!